Update

Well, I finally got to go see my endo.  He was really nice and I liked him a lot.  He said Cushing's is super rare (I already knew that and still think I have it) but he said there is definitely something wrong with me hormonally.  He isn't going to ignore the Cushing's possibility thankfully, but he is testing me simultaneously for that and Polycistic Ovarian Syndrome, which I guess is a lot more common and has many of the same symptoms.  My hump isn't a symptom for that though and that's the whole reason this got started!  Oh wells, we shall see I suppose.

Today = first day or school, ugh.  I had to drop one of my classes all over and go down to 3/4 time (9 credit hours) because my Pell Grant was inexplicably cut way wayyyy down ($2000 less).  That is sad so now I will only be graduating with one degree instead of two like I was planning on :(

Ugh life.

The doctor sent me for blood tests the other day and they took seven vials of blood from me, I thought I was going to be sucked dry!  I also have to do another 24-hour urine test (oh joy).  I'm just glad someone is actually taking me seriously :)

hmph

Do you ever feel like your significant other is holding you back?  
That's kind of how I'm feeling right now.  I have just been cruising around Facebook and I ended up on two of my ex's sites and one is engaged and the other just got married!  I had no idea!  I'm not upset about that because I have no desire to be married right now, but when looking at their pictures...they just seemed so happy and in love.  There were pictures of the couples snuggling and smiling and being generally in love...and there were pictures of them out doing things, together!  We never go anywhere :(  We always just stay home and watch movies or something.  I think I'm bored with him and my life.  I feel like I'm being held back in every way.  I don't even want to live in Sandusky but he refuses to leave!  He doesn't even want to live in this horrible city!  He never cuddles me or holds my hand...I don't know..maybe I'm just being melodramatic, but I am definitely feeling lonely, and slightly robbed, unhappy.  I want to do something with my life, but I feel like I'll never have the chance.  


I really wish I hadn't moved away from Columbus.